PROLOGUE
This poem explores the inner turmoil of an individual dealing with the aftermath of traumatic past relationships. Despite a desire for love, they are held back by fear and mistrust, realizing they are unprepared for commitment. The narrator acknowledges their sincere feelings for another person but recognizes the need for healing before pursuing a relationship. They express regret for their actions, including ghosting, and convey that it’s crucial to take things slowly. Ultimately, they hope to reconnect when they are ready, illustrating the conflict between longing for love and the necessity of personal healing.
You Don’t Know How Hard It Was To Let You Go
I know I upset you that night;
There was too much on my mind;
I’m sorry I ran out the way that I did.
My feelings left me confused;
But that’s really no excuse;
The truth is I got scared so I hid.
You had been sincere,
and always been clear,
with me about how you felt.
The way you feel for me,
if only you could see,
has caused my heart to melt.
But I had hesitated,
and intentionally waited,
to reveal my true feelings for you.
My previous love trauma,
was just really bad karma,
something I’d never want to again go through.
But seeing you that night,
made it difficult to hide,
how I felt about you since we met.
As soon as I said “I love you”,
those three words I wished I withdrew,
because I wasn’t ready for us yet.
And so that was why I ran;
I don’t expect you to understand.
Before I could be with you I’d first need to heal.
I’m sorry for messing with your head,
but I truly meant what I said,
My love and feelings for you are real.
I’m sorry that I ghosted you
and for the pain that I put you through;
It’s better this way as I need us to take it slow.
We can try again when I’m ready,
if you haven’t moved on already;
You don’t know how hard it was to let you go.
