PROLOGUE
This poem delves into the emotional turmoil of losing oneself in a relationship, emphasizing the pain of sacrificing personal identity and needs for the sake of love. It illustrates how devotion can lead to neglecting personal priorities, desires, and friendships, ultimately creating feelings of resentment and bitterness. The poem conveys a struggle with the need for approval from a partner, revealing the detrimental effects of being overly absorbed in a relationship. The author reflects on the journey of recognizing these signs to help individuals regain their sense of self before the relationship leads to self-destruction.
I Lost Myself For A While
I’d find myself changing
my priorities always rearranging
to put you first and foremost.
I stopped doing things I used to do
when I was single before meeting you;
You had me so heavily engrossed.
I’ve become the King of compromise
Your needs, my heart never denies.
as long as you’re happy I’ll be too as well.
I’d do anything you want me to;
I’d rarely prioritize myself over you;
Wouldn’t know better if you bewitched me with a spell.
I changed the way I dress
and I’d be ready to say yes
to doing things that I really wouldn’t want to.
My friends would take a back seat
and I’d forgive you if you were to cheat;
That was how obsessed I was with you.
I was constantly looking for your approval
even if I knew that our future was futile.
There’d be resentment and bitterness behind my smile.
But yet I’d be afraid to walk away,
and until I have the wisdom not to stay,
my time with you had me lost myself for a while.
